I try not to expect too much from people. Really, truly, I have no real faith in mankind. My political and philosophical alignment has me hope with the greatest of hopes that we are capable of our own change within, but rationally I believe there’s no way. No fucking way. Have you seen the people that live today? Monstrous.

But it really bothers me when I let an expectation be known  and it is ignored. I am not judging a person, as in they are no longer worthy of trust, but just that they can never exceed to what I believed they could be. My seemingly naivete is exposed. I feel vulnerable that I would even entrust this faith in a person.

In addition to this, I don’t understand people who claim they care so much about my opinion, then when I offer it, completely disregard its existence. Why the fuck would you even bother for it then? I guess people are looking for some reassurance through me, and apparently I do not offer it. I am not the person to tell you what you want to hear.

If something is expected of me, I will deliver, unless it’s against my principles (I’m very Kantian in nature). If I happen once in a lifetime place an expectation on someone else, I really do expect them to fulfill it. If they don’t, I automatically label it as a failure of mankind. We’re just too selfish to care about doing things for other people.

I’m an embittered spinster at the age of 23. Perfect.